It’s been nearly a year since my last entry. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve opened up this page to provide an update, but honestly, sometimes it’s just too hard to talk about it all.

Cancer is hard. That seems like such a “duh” observation — but unless you’ve truly gone through it, the reality of what hard means is much more than can be concretely expressed. It’s often easier to just be like the people who offer their sorries or commiseration and then walk away…if I don’t talk about it, if I don’t reveal the pain and suffering that persists (despite doing really well) then I can detach myself from that world.